Did you feel that?
Nearly a year just went by with all the adrenaline, expectation, hair flying, air displacement and let-down of a subway train going straight past my platform. This was a year, in which there were many endings, a few beginnings, some ups… and multitude of downs. At times it felt as though I was hanging onto a rocket by my bloodied finger nails, terrified I would spiral off in mid-air.
Things have finally come to a stop and like a child who can never be satisfied, I’m stuck asking, “so this is it?” Goals and dreams once imagined are going through a forced reassessment. From all the changes this past year, that is the one thing that’s been hardest to adapt to. It feels too much like starting over… again. So after a month or so of grieving, I’m back on my feet, wondering where to go from here.
I’m looking at new ways to create my future, even if I have to “MacGyver” it.